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my birthday!

My birthday is tomorrow, January 26, 2012 my mom had me exactly 20 years ago on this day:) so excited! She is busy in the kitchen right now making a white cake with strawberry icing.. yummy I LOVE HER:)

BUT… i would be perfectly happy with something as simple as this:)

BUT… i would be perfectly happy with something as simple as this:)

orrr this:) <3 loooove

orrr this:) <3 loooove

my birthday cake? yes please:)

my birthday cake? yes please:)

aw:)

aw:)

Sarah Dessen

“It’s all in the view. That’s what I mean about forever, too. For any one of us our forever could end in an hour, or a hundred years from now. You never know for sure, so you’d better make every second count.”

“I don’t believe in failure, because simply by saying you’ve failed, you’ve admitted you attempted. And anyone who attempts is not a failure. Those who truly fail in my eyes are the ones who never try at all. The ones who sit on the couch and whine and moan and wait for the world to change for them.” 

“Some people, they can’t just move on, you know, mourn and cry and be done with it. Or at least seem to be. But for me… I don’t know. I didn’t want to fix it, to forget. It wasn’t something that was broken. It’s just…something that happened. And like that hole, I’m just finding ways, every day, of working around it. Respecting and remembering and getting on at the same time. ” 

“Life can be long or short, it all depends on how you choose to live it. it’s like forever, always changing. for any of us our forever could end in an hour, or a hundred years from now. you can never know for sure, so you’d better make every second count. what you have to decide is how you want your life to be. if your forever was ending tomorrow, is this how you’d want to have spent it?”

“There are some things in this world you rely on, like a sure bet. And when they let you down, shifting from where you’ve carefully placed them, it shakes your faith, right where you stand.” 

“My point is, there are a lot of people in the world. No one ever sees everything the same way you do; it just doesn’t happen. So when you find one person who gets a couple of things, especially if they’re important ones… you might as well hold on to them. You know?” 

“She fell, she hurt, she felt. She lived. And for all the tumble of her experiences, she still had hope. Maybe this next time would do the trick. Or maybe not. But unless you stepped into the game, you would never know.” 

“well, it’s true that i have been hurt in my life. Quite a bit. But it’s also true that i have loved, and been loved. and that carries a weight of it’s own. a greater weight, in my opinion. it’s like that pie chart we talked about earlier. in the end, i’ll look back on my life and see that the greatest piece of it was love. the problems, the divorces, the sadness… those will be there too, but just smaller slivers, tiny pieces. ” 

“Look, the point is there’s no way to be a hundred percent sure about anyone or anything. So you’re left with a choice. Either hope for the best or just expect the worst.”

“But if something was really important, fate made sure it somehow came back to you and gave you another chance.” 

“It shouldn’t be easy to be amazing. Then everything would be. It’s the thing you fight for and struggle with before earning that have the greatest worth. When something difficult to come by, you’ll do that much more to make sure it’s even harder—or impossible— to lose.” 

“I mean, it’s not surprising, really. Once you love something, you always love it in some way. You have to. It’s, like, part of you for good.”

“It was so easy to disown what you couldn’t recognize, to keep yourself apart from things that were foreign and unsettling. The only person you can be sure to control, always, is yourself. Which is a lot to be sure of, but at the same time, not enough.” 

“I knew that in the silence that followed, that anything could happen here. It might be too late again. I might have missed my chance. But I would at least know I tried, that I took my heart and extended my hand, whatever the outcome.” 

“It was amazing how you could get so far from where you’d planned, and yet find it was exactly were you needed to be.” 

“One week, one strong. One scared, one bold. I was beginning to understand though, that there were no such things as absolutes, not in life, or in people. Like Owen said, it was day by day, if not moment by moment. All you could do was take on as much weight as you can bear. And if you’re lucky, there’s someone close enough to shoulder the rest.” 

“Outside, the ocean was crashing, waves hitting sand, then pulling back to sea. I thought of everything being washed away, again and again. We make such messes in this life, both accidentally and on purpose. But wiping the surface clean doesn’t really make anything neater. It just masks what is below. It’s only when you really dig down deep, go underground, that you can see who you really are.” 

“So many times it seemed like there were chances to stop things before they started. Or even stop them in midstream. But it was even worse when you knew in that very moment that there was still time to save yourself, and yet you couldn’t even budge.” 

“It was like discovering that some part of you wasn’t yours at all. And it made me wonder what else I couldn’t claim.” 

“And no relationship is perfect, ever. There are always some ways you have to bend, to compromise, to give something up in order to gain something greater. ”

“I mean, it’s impossible to fake anything if you’ve already seen the other person in a way they’d never choose for you to. You can’t go back from that.” 

“You get what you give, but also what you’re willing to take. The night before, I’d offered up my hand. Now, if I held on, there was no telling what it was possible to recieve in return.”

“If only you could really use a fail-proof system to know who was worth keeping and who needed to be thrown away. It would make it so much easier to move through the world, picking and choosing what connections to make, or whether to make any at all.”

“Maybe marriage, like life, is’nt only about the big moments, whether they be good or bad. Maybe it’s all the small things - like being guided slowly forward, surely, day after day - that stretches out to strengthen even the most tenuous bond.”

“I am coming to terms with the fact that loving someone requires a leap of faith, and that a soft landing is never guaranteed.” 

-sarah dessen